tired

tonight is my last night in the hospital, which i am pretty happy about. this whole situation is still pretty crazy to me, and even though i should be bummed as hell (concidering i'm basically going to be in bed and learning how to walk again all fucking summer), i'm keeping my head up.

i am getting kind of lonely though, and it has nothing to do with the injury, it just being in bed all day gives me really nothing to do but watch a lot of tv or think, which sucks. i hate how lonely i'm getting. i just want someone, i want to be in love again so badly and i don't see it happening anytime soon at all, especially with this fucking situation pulling me back. i feel so gross, and so ugly, and its one of the worst feelings in the world. not to mention needing help all the time.

i also have really no way of making shit. i've been getting ideas for prints and photos and i have no way of making them. i can't even do anything in photoshop because i can't connect to it in the hospital. thats probably another reason why i'm realizing how lonely i am, because i usually get it out of my system by making it into something. i don't even have a sketch book, just coloring books. guh.

i know it seems like i have a terrible attitude about this whole thing with this post, but i really am keeping my head high, i just need to bitch about the shitty parts about the whole thing once and a while.

here are some gum prints i did before the semester ended and this whole fucking thing happened